FROM HIS BACK

   Should I just be contented catching a stare from his back? Looking at how perfectly toned his body is. wishing and hoping that someday, I could caress his back freely, without hesitation, without fear that he won't let me. Should I just be happy that coz' he has no idea that I actually am in love with him, he is letting me become his friend and be somewhat close to him? The hardest thing from a secret gay's life, is that you know you love him, but you can't just tell him because of your fear that even the smallest thing that you have between the two of you might also be lost.

   I don't want this feeling, I just don't. Fuck this feeling!!!

   Someone help...